Second month of 2009 nearly over, just been paid (whoopee!) and just had my 3rd session with the counsellor.
She's nudging me towards leaving my safety zone and trying something new - maybe I'll try horse riding with Janie as she's been asking if I'd like to for months now. It'd get me out of the apartment, anyway, which'd make a nice change.
Told her about the Myers-Brigg test results and she wasn't surprised - it did lead on to talking about why I haven't done more, and about how strong my safety zone feeling is. Fear of rejection and embarrassment is so high, yet I've never really been rejected that I can remember, so I don't know where that one comes from. Embarrassment is due to me taking ownership of too much stuff, I think, even when the outcome is not under my control - I have too much self-control, not enough self-confidence....
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
Saturday, 21 February 2009
Jung and Myers-Brigg
Your type is
You are:
[*]very expressed introvert
[*]moderately expressed sensing personality
[*]moderately expressed thinking personality
[*]very expressed judging personality
Guardian™ Portrait of the Inspector (ISTJ)
The one word that best describes Inspectors is superdependable. Whether at home or at work, Inspectors are extraordinarily persevering and dutiful, particularly when it comes to keeping an eye on the people and products they are responsible for. In their quiet way, Inspectors see to it that rules are followed, laws are respected, and standards are upheld.
Inspectors (as much as ten percent of the general population) are the true guardians of institutions. They are patient with their work and with the procedures within an institution, although not always with the unauthorized behavior of some people in that institution. Responsible to the core, Inspectors like it when people know their duties, follow the guidelines, and operate within the rules. For their part, Inspectors will see to it that goods are examined and schedules are kept, that resources will be up to standards and delivered when and where they are supposed to be. And they would prefer that everyone be this dependable. Inspectors can be hard-nosed about the need for following the rules in the workplace, and do not hesitate to report irregularities to the proper authorities. Because of this they are often misjudged as being hard-hearted, or as having ice in their veins, for people fail to see their good intentions and their vulnerability to criticism. Also, because Inspectors usually make their inspections without much flourish or fanfare, the dedication they bring to their work can go unnoticed and unappreciated.
While not as talkative as Supervisor Guardians [ESTJs], Inspectors are still highly sociable, and are likely to be involved in community service organizations, such as Sunday School, Little League, or Boy and Girl Scouting, that transmit traditional values to the young. Like all Guardians, Inspectors hold dear their family social ceremonies-weddings, birthdays, and anniversaries - although they tend to be shy if the occasion becomes too large or too public. Generally speaking, Inspectors are not comfortable with anything that gets too fancy. Their words tend to be plain and down-to-earth, not showy or high-flown; their clothes are often simple and conservative rather than of the latest fashion; and their home and work environments are usually neat, orderly, and traditional, rather than trendy or ostentatious. As for personal property, they usually choose standard items over models loaded with features, and they often try to find classics and antiques - Inspectors prefer the old-fashioned to the newfangled every time.
Queen Elizabeth II, Harry S. Truman, Warren Buffet, Queen Victoria, James K. Polk, and J.D. Rockefeller are examples of Inspector Guardians.
Hmm.......
| Your Type is ISTJ |
| Introverted | Sensing | Thinking | Judging |
| Strength of the preferences % | |||
| 89 | 50 | 38 | 78 |
You are:
[*]very expressed introvert
[*]moderately expressed sensing personality
[*]moderately expressed thinking personality
[*]very expressed judging personality
Guardian™ Portrait of the Inspector (ISTJ)
The one word that best describes Inspectors is superdependable. Whether at home or at work, Inspectors are extraordinarily persevering and dutiful, particularly when it comes to keeping an eye on the people and products they are responsible for. In their quiet way, Inspectors see to it that rules are followed, laws are respected, and standards are upheld.
Inspectors (as much as ten percent of the general population) are the true guardians of institutions. They are patient with their work and with the procedures within an institution, although not always with the unauthorized behavior of some people in that institution. Responsible to the core, Inspectors like it when people know their duties, follow the guidelines, and operate within the rules. For their part, Inspectors will see to it that goods are examined and schedules are kept, that resources will be up to standards and delivered when and where they are supposed to be. And they would prefer that everyone be this dependable. Inspectors can be hard-nosed about the need for following the rules in the workplace, and do not hesitate to report irregularities to the proper authorities. Because of this they are often misjudged as being hard-hearted, or as having ice in their veins, for people fail to see their good intentions and their vulnerability to criticism. Also, because Inspectors usually make their inspections without much flourish or fanfare, the dedication they bring to their work can go unnoticed and unappreciated.
While not as talkative as Supervisor Guardians [ESTJs], Inspectors are still highly sociable, and are likely to be involved in community service organizations, such as Sunday School, Little League, or Boy and Girl Scouting, that transmit traditional values to the young. Like all Guardians, Inspectors hold dear their family social ceremonies-weddings, birthdays, and anniversaries - although they tend to be shy if the occasion becomes too large or too public. Generally speaking, Inspectors are not comfortable with anything that gets too fancy. Their words tend to be plain and down-to-earth, not showy or high-flown; their clothes are often simple and conservative rather than of the latest fashion; and their home and work environments are usually neat, orderly, and traditional, rather than trendy or ostentatious. As for personal property, they usually choose standard items over models loaded with features, and they often try to find classics and antiques - Inspectors prefer the old-fashioned to the newfangled every time.
Queen Elizabeth II, Harry S. Truman, Warren Buffet, Queen Victoria, James K. Polk, and J.D. Rockefeller are examples of Inspector Guardians.
Hmm.......
Monday, 16 February 2009
Riding? Maybe soon
The back end of the cold was still kicking my butt so I didn't go for a ride at the weekend, too tired and concentration levels not there, and unless I have to be somewhere I don't ride when my head is off with the fairies.
I took a quick drive down to Ballasalla to try and pick up my mate's diving regulator that he put in for service last summer(!), but the place was all shut up, so came back into town and just picked up some bits and pieces - Wall-E dvd and iLife '09, plus some groceries.
I sat down and watched Wall-E that afternoon - some very funny bits, and very reminiscent of both ET and Johnny 5 from Short Circuit
Still trying to catch up on some missed sleep on both nights, but was up eventually mid-morning on Sunday, and rode over to Harry's - to find he wasn't in! Rode back to home, had some lunch then sent him a text to check he was back in - he was, so back on the bike again and over to his for a cuppa and a natter (and to get roped into helping him fit a blind in the bathroom - any excuse to get the grinder out though
Had a good chat, then home for Time Team on the tv. Two jobs to do on the computer this week - add iLife '09 (maybe removing the previous iLife '06 data, adding '09 and then re-importing all the photos in a more meaningful fashion) and to update my Pix By Me website with the aborted trip last autumn.
Spoke to parents on Saturday - firstly to wish my dad a happy 64th birthday (the old fart! lol), and secondly to find out where all my photos from my late teens and early 20s were - they think they have them, so that's a bonus!
I took a quick drive down to Ballasalla to try and pick up my mate's diving regulator that he put in for service last summer(!), but the place was all shut up, so came back into town and just picked up some bits and pieces - Wall-E dvd and iLife '09, plus some groceries.
I sat down and watched Wall-E that afternoon - some very funny bits, and very reminiscent of both ET and Johnny 5 from Short Circuit
Still trying to catch up on some missed sleep on both nights, but was up eventually mid-morning on Sunday, and rode over to Harry's - to find he wasn't in! Rode back to home, had some lunch then sent him a text to check he was back in - he was, so back on the bike again and over to his for a cuppa and a natter (and to get roped into helping him fit a blind in the bathroom - any excuse to get the grinder out though
Had a good chat, then home for Time Team on the tv. Two jobs to do on the computer this week - add iLife '09 (maybe removing the previous iLife '06 data, adding '09 and then re-importing all the photos in a more meaningful fashion) and to update my Pix By Me website with the aborted trip last autumn.
Spoke to parents on Saturday - firstly to wish my dad a happy 64th birthday (the old fart! lol), and secondly to find out where all my photos from my late teens and early 20s were - they think they have them, so that's a bonus!
Thursday, 12 February 2009
Survived
Just about clearing this coldy thing, and without missing any work - hmm, I think I got that wrong somehow!
Another good sesh with the counsellor this week, talking about the values instilled in me by my parents, and the Transactional Analysis Parent-Adult-Child theory - I'm too much of a 'Parent' not enough of a 'Child', I think, always looking out for others to the detriment of my own well-being. Some stuff to think about until my next session on the 23rd.
This cold thing has kept me pretty quiet of an evening, not much appetite for food and so on, and running out of books to read - or re-read, anyway!
My best mate has now left the island for his secondment to Hong Kong, so another area to work out in my head.....
Another good sesh with the counsellor this week, talking about the values instilled in me by my parents, and the Transactional Analysis Parent-Adult-Child theory - I'm too much of a 'Parent' not enough of a 'Child', I think, always looking out for others to the detriment of my own well-being. Some stuff to think about until my next session on the 23rd.
This cold thing has kept me pretty quiet of an evening, not much appetite for food and so on, and running out of books to read - or re-read, anyway!
My best mate has now left the island for his secondment to Hong Kong, so another area to work out in my head.....
Monday, 9 February 2009
Toughness
It's been a tough week - caught up a bit on work, which was good, then my best mate heard that he'd got his secondment to Hong Kong on Thursday, so he leaves the island on the 10th, flying to HK on the 13th. Went out with him Thursday night, then got sick in the middle of the night, so didn't go to work on Friday.
I felt a little better on Saturday, so went over Pete's house to help him go through clothes and the like, packing for three months minimum in HK, chucking a load of stuff too. Back over there on Sunday too, but both nights I was pretty much done-in by 5pm - the sickness from Friday still kicking my butt, I think.
In bed by 10pm last night, woke up this morning not feeling great - achy, headache, coated throat, stuff like that. Hope I'm not getting my flatmate's sickness from last week :-S Little bit of anxiety over the weekend too, probably due to Pete going - 10 years of being best mates will do that to me - and my brain making it much worse than it actually is as we'll still be in contact.
Second counselling session at 1.30pm today - we'll see how I feel afterwards....
Decided to keep my Africa Twin bike for now - no point spending out on a new bike at this moment, so I'll speak to Harry's mate James to see if he can help me clean it up (rust removal etc) as I don't have a garage and go from there.
I felt a little better on Saturday, so went over Pete's house to help him go through clothes and the like, packing for three months minimum in HK, chucking a load of stuff too. Back over there on Sunday too, but both nights I was pretty much done-in by 5pm - the sickness from Friday still kicking my butt, I think.
In bed by 10pm last night, woke up this morning not feeling great - achy, headache, coated throat, stuff like that. Hope I'm not getting my flatmate's sickness from last week :-S Little bit of anxiety over the weekend too, probably due to Pete going - 10 years of being best mates will do that to me - and my brain making it much worse than it actually is as we'll still be in contact.
Second counselling session at 1.30pm today - we'll see how I feel afterwards....
Decided to keep my Africa Twin bike for now - no point spending out on a new bike at this moment, so I'll speak to Harry's mate James to see if he can help me clean it up (rust removal etc) as I don't have a garage and go from there.
Tuesday, 3 February 2009
My mind
Well, following on from my anxiety/panic attack last September, I had my first session with a counsellor yesterday - 50 mins starting to go through my mind. A very strange place it is too, with various things coming out - bonus of talking to someone you don't know, I suppose. She gave me an anxiety booklet to read, which I will do before next Monday's session (I get 6 free sessions on the NHS).
Got to get into a happy place and out of my shell, so going to try and do more - plan is Harry's tomorrow night for a chat, up to Kirk Michael for a quiz at The Mitre with the motorbike lot on Thursday, and then to a pub on Saturday to watch the rugby. If that all comes off, it'll be a good start.
Got to get into a happy place and out of my shell, so going to try and do more - plan is Harry's tomorrow night for a chat, up to Kirk Michael for a quiz at The Mitre with the motorbike lot on Thursday, and then to a pub on Saturday to watch the rugby. If that all comes off, it'll be a good start.
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