Well, having slept on it, I'm gonna keep the Africa Twin and spend some money restoring it.
The rest of my life? Meh, ups and downs still, drifting again, missing friends, needing some direction.
I'm losing some weight, which is good, although not trying to do it consciously, just comes from eating more healthily I suppose. Going to go look at some houses coming up for auction to see if the style, age, etc suit me - at least they'd give me a project, something to do in the evenings apart from come online, rueing my life and past decisions.
Not sleeping well doesn't help, mind - my brain is going off on motorcycle journeys as I try to fall asleep, planning where to go and what to see. Why can't someone invent a switch so that I can turn that part of me off when I want to? The happy Ben is still inside me, and comes out to play every now and then, I just want him to be there more often - the question is, how to do that?
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